Will You Cry If I Were To Die Right Now?¿?¿?

Sorry to be so negative but I really feel like putting an end to it. The only reason why I'm still around is all because of my mum. I think she will be the only person to cry if I were to leave this sad place now.

I regret leaving my job so early. Now that I'm so free, I go drinking almost everyday cause I'm feeling very lonely and fear is starting to choke me. There is a move that I want to make but I'm just too scare. Yes, I'm not a man. I'm just a coward who always run away from Facts but is there anyone out there that truly understand me?

Just now, went 72 with Tai, Kang, William, Bryan and Zephyra. I did not want to drink today but if no one drink then very paiseh lar... So we open one bottle. I drink very slowly until CARTOON APPEAR... OMG, She remember me... I tried to hide but I can't. She very stick to me so I ended up drinking quite abit with her. Die lar... Tmr going down again, hope she will not come find me... I will try to push her to Kang or Tai tmr... hahahahahaa

After that we went supper. Then I start chatting with Kang about the 2 bastards. I understand how Kang feel because we used to be so close and he treasure friendship more than anything in the world. But I don't feel that they are sorry and don't feel their sincerity at all. I ask Kang to forget it cause even if they are apology now, I might not forgive them too.

I'm very tired already. I want to sleep but Kang & Tai still chatting about Thai Songs in MSN for almost an hour already. I think Kang is addicted to Thai Songs already.

Let me end this post with Kang's ex-fav.girl @ Nana... Welcome RAIN.


Yah... I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU.