Last night, I went westmall with my Baby and I got a surprise of my life. She has arranged for her mum to meet me without informing me. I got a shock when I saw her mum. I think her mum saw my shocking face too. We went for coffee but then I recall that I got no cash with me. I ran to the ATM to withdraw money. Come to think about it, it was not a bad thing cause I took the time I had at the ATM to calm myself down. Thank God that everything turn out quite smoothly. Hopefully I leave a good impression instead of a bad one.
Today, my Baby got an interview at 10am. I been trying to wake her up since 8am and I told her it's raining and it will be hard to flag a cab but she only manage to drag herself out of the bed at around 9am. Before she left the house, I told her it's raining and ask her to bring an umbrella but she don't want. She say the rain stopped. Soon after, she notice that her documents are missing. She left it at home and forget to bring. That's when she start turning grouchy and start showing attitude . She then rush off for her interview. I did not sent her down because I'm tired and lazy. 5mins after she left my house, she called me and say that she could not get a cab and is getting wet under the rain. The moment she hang up then phone, I quickly talk a jacket and an umbrella and rush down to find her. Thanks to my stupid slippers and the wet floor, I slip and fall. My butt is so pain lor. I got back on my feet and went to find her. As expected, she is so impatient and grouchy. I start to wonder how was her performance when she was working as an event management. It is the basic of all management job to stay calm and analyze the situation. Never mind about that. What really piss me off is that she got no cash with her and she don't want to take from me. Am I even her boyfriend? Or she is looking down on me since I'm not working now? And right in-front of me, she called her suitor and wanted to ask him come pick her up. I know she is late and there is no cab but did she think about how will I feel when she did that? I feel so useless and disrespected. Yesterday when I told my Baby that a friend's girlfriend ask me to play mahjong which I rejected her straightaway cause I need to fetch my Baby from work but my Baby still got jealous and angry. So why can't I be jealous and angry when my Baby called her suitor to come pick her up. 2 days ago, she went out with her suitor alone I already keep quiet lor.
I can't stand it when she threaten to leave me. She give me the feeling that I'm totally not important to her and she will leave anytime. Today, I suddenly feel very tired and the thoughts of giving up came across my mind but I recall something that my Baby say yesterday. "When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place". Haizzz... Hope the rain will stop and the bright sun will come out soon. Pray that my Baby interview will be successful and she is able to get a job she like soon.
24 September 2009
23 September 2009
CHANGE - Yes, You Can
In this world, no one is perfect. I'm not perfect, my Baby is 
not perfect too. In this post, I shall not sweet talk but state out some of the things I hope she can change. Please understand that I'm not complaining. I just want to be honest and voice out my real feeling. I do not wish to hide anything from her.
* Hotheaded - Control your temper and wait for me to finish saying whatever I got to say before blocking your brain from receiving new input information. You often misunderstood me and will not listen to my explanation which makes my life very difficult. If I can change my temper, why can't you right? :-)
* Loudspeaker - I know whenever you're unhappy, you will rise your voice but I really don't like peoples to rise their voice at me. I find it very rude and disrespectful. I still feel that it's always better to talk nicely. If you talk in a better tone, peoples will tends to be more willing to listen. :-)
* Pigness - I know you love pigs but even pigs need to eat
proper meals. I don't like you to skip or eat irregular meals. I'm worry that it might destroy your health. When I say meals, I don't mean tidbits. Those foods are unhealthy and it is so much more fattening than normal meals. Lastly, human are unlike pigs. Pigs eat and sleep at the same place but not for human. I find it very unhygienic to lay on the bed and eat. It will only attract roaches and ants to sleep with you. I know you don't want that to happen right? :-)
Baby, I really want to take care of you but if you don't help me, it will be hard for me to do so. I don't expect you to change overnight. I know that everything take time. Just take it easy and don't feel too stress after reading this post. I want to change too. I hope you can tell me my flaws too so I can change and better a better man. Let us work together to built a strong foundation for our relationship. A foundation that is strong even to support and let us continue to grow Our LOVE. Hope we will never need to put a Full-stop to Our LOVE. Let's ensure that Our Love will go on till the end of world.
Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never go till we're one
Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on
not perfect too. In this post, I shall not sweet talk but state out some of the things I hope she can change. Please understand that I'm not complaining. I just want to be honest and voice out my real feeling. I do not wish to hide anything from her.* Hotheaded - Control your temper and wait for me to finish saying whatever I got to say before blocking your brain from receiving new input information. You often misunderstood me and will not listen to my explanation which makes my life very difficult. If I can change my temper, why can't you right? :-)
* Loudspeaker - I know whenever you're unhappy, you will rise your voice but I really don't like peoples to rise their voice at me. I find it very rude and disrespectful. I still feel that it's always better to talk nicely. If you talk in a better tone, peoples will tends to be more willing to listen. :-)
* Pigness - I know you love pigs but even pigs need to eat
proper meals. I don't like you to skip or eat irregular meals. I'm worry that it might destroy your health. When I say meals, I don't mean tidbits. Those foods are unhealthy and it is so much more fattening than normal meals. Lastly, human are unlike pigs. Pigs eat and sleep at the same place but not for human. I find it very unhygienic to lay on the bed and eat. It will only attract roaches and ants to sleep with you. I know you don't want that to happen right? :-)Baby, I really want to take care of you but if you don't help me, it will be hard for me to do so. I don't expect you to change overnight. I know that everything take time. Just take it easy and don't feel too stress after reading this post. I want to change too. I hope you can tell me my flaws too so I can change and better a better man. Let us work together to built a strong foundation for our relationship. A foundation that is strong even to support and let us continue to grow Our LOVE. Hope we will never need to put a Full-stop to Our LOVE. Let's ensure that Our Love will go on till the end of world.
Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never go till we're one
Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on
21 September 2009
21 Days Of Rollercoaster Ride
Usually the first month of dating is the honeymoon period but it seems different for us. Things are really not easy. I really trying my best already. I just want to see her happy but I failed. Not only did I not make her happier, I make her cried almost everyday. That's not what I really wants. I WANT TO SEE HER SMILE. I'm really very disappointed in myself.
Yesterday, we went Jurong Point to shop and she was carrying a big and heavy bag. The bag looks bigger than her body and so as a gentleman, I offer to help her carry but she don't want me to help me. I'm not sure if it's because I just recovered from my hand injuries. Then during dinner, she insist on paying for the meal because I have not been working for months already and my cash is running low. I feel so useless as a guy. I WANT TO START WORKING SOON. I WANT TO GIVE HER THE BEST I CAN. I WANT TO GIVE HER ALL MY HEART. I WANT TO MAKE SURE ALL MY WANTS ARE FULFILLED.
Yesterday, we went Jurong Point to shop and she was carrying a big and heavy bag. The bag looks bigger than her body and so as a gentleman, I offer to help her carry but she don't want me to help me. I'm not sure if it's because I just recovered from my hand injuries. Then during dinner, she insist on paying for the meal because I have not been working for months already and my cash is running low. I feel so useless as a guy. I WANT TO START WORKING SOON. I WANT TO GIVE HER THE BEST I CAN. I WANT TO GIVE HER ALL MY HEART. I WANT TO MAKE SURE ALL MY WANTS ARE FULFILLED.
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