Life Is Like A Roller Coaster

Yesterday was quite an emo day for me. Maybe it's because I do not have to work and got nothing better to do so I ended up thinking about unnecessary things. I should let my imagination run wild rather than to waste time thinking about something that I don't wish to recall.

STOP THINKING. I should find something to do but WHAT? Alright, I go read up some blogs. Blogs in my Google Reader is sorted by alphabetical and so the first blog I read is "And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did". It's Miss Emo blog. Here's her post:
worst day i ever had. & i cant say it here nor share it there.
ps: mr Q is having fun at the club tonight,how great! yet only to realise i have noone now i can turn to and rant my problems.anyway have fun Q! enjoy the celebration lah! :)

After reading it, I do not know why but I become even more emo. I think I can understand how she feels. Many times, I really hope there is someone by side to care, love or even just to offer me a listening ear. I starting to doubt the sincerity of everyone around me. I do not know who can I really trust. Friends that I used to believe for almost 15 years turn their back against me when I needed them the most.

Miss Emo & I got many things in common which create the impulse of wanting to protect her. Worried that Miss Emo there is something serious bothering her, I decided drop her a note on msn. She replied saying that she is feeling much better now but I can sense that she is still feeling very down. The conversation become quiet because I'm too emo to think about how to cheer her up. Hopefully god will bless her and clear all the obstacle that is in her path.

I ended my day watching Michael Jackson's Memorial. While watching, I do not have much feeling. Maybe it's because I'm not a fan of MJ. However, when MJ's eldest daughter (Paris) took over the microphone, her simple few words touches my heart. Maybe it's not her words that touches me but her emotional voice tone.
"Ever since I was born, Daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine. And I just wanted to say I love him so much,"

I could not sleep after that. I just could not stop thinking about my awful life. The more I think about it, the most scared I become. I really do not want to experience it again. It's a Living Hell...

Here's some words of advice from my friends in Facebook.
Edi - If something doesn't feel right, then don't do it.
May - If not move on..you will never know the result. Think of the bright side.
Sito - Once bitten twice shy. Life still goes on ! Enjoy life to the fullest, no regret !
Joann - ...i can understand what u mean....but i guess mistakes are part of life...in which we learn n grow...keke..

Thanks Everyone... :-) I'm feeling better today.



ps: YY, must wait for me to come back then we together go buy iPhone ok?