All Over Again

Wow... More than a year never blog already. Actually I forgotten all about my blog already. Suddenly it just came across my mind to blog out my feeling. Too many things happened over the past year.  

Work Life
I'm getting used to my new career path (almost 2 years already so not that new). It started off quite tough but just as everything is getting into place something happen and change it all. I been in this job without any major problem until last Sunday 11 sept (9/11 tenth anniversary). At around 9.50am, I was watching TV in R01 BB01 (It is a main gaming area for VIP) cause there is no player on my table when WJB (a famous for trouble making player) suddenly start shouting, "Kick that guy out of here, I do not want to see him anymore. If I see you again, I will break your leg". At first I thought he is scolding his dealer and want to change him but when I notice he is scolding me, I'm STUNNED. PM (Pit manager) Michael quickly ask me to go into Room S23 first. Soon after, PM came in and ask me what happen. I told him that I don't know. I was just sitting there watching my TV. He told me that WJB claim that I stared and scold him FUCK YOU. How the hell can I scold him when my back is facing him. He was at R01 BB03. I was then ask to go to CSM (Company Shift Manager) office to see Ann. Ann asked me the same question again and I told her that I really do not know what happen. I did nothing. I told her to check CCTV to prove my innocent. She say that she believe me so she will not check CCTV and ask me to go down to stay in MGA (Main gaming area) for 2 weeks then see if he leave already or not. If he leave, I can go back upstairs. In my heart was like WTF. Believe me then don't check CCTV? I think they don't want to offence the player and tell him that he made a mistake, I never scold him. And because of this, I been kick out of VIP area. I really wonder that management tell WJB. Did they make it like I really did scold him? Damn I'm so scare it will affect my chance of promotion. I been working every hard this year hoping to get promoted soon. Looks like it's all down the drain. Haizzzz... What the hell did I do wrong. Seriously, it is affecting my emotion quite badly. I'm so disappointed. These few days, I been trying very hard to control my emotional and try to continue give in my best at work. SMILE SMILE SMILE but in my heart is SADNESS & DISAPPOINTMENT.  

Personal Life
Don't know where to start from. All I can say is that I disappoint a person that has been very good to me. She is always there for me when I need someone but some thing cannot be forced. Cannot do it mean cannot do it. I owned you a thousand SORRY. Thinking about all these making me emotional. I think I will stop for now. Will update again soon.

I hope I can be like Chris Medina but I'm just not strong enough

Take It Slow & Relax

I think I really learnt how to really enjoy life now. I spent the last few days enjoying life ever though my work is super busy. BTW, the casino is opening real soon so I'm super busy now. So in order not to burn myself out before the casino open, here are some of the things I did over the past few days.

1. Drank a nice cup of Rose-bud tea after work at Airport's Coffee Club. :P

2. Went to ECP around 1am with Piggy. We sat there enjoying the peaceful moment and watched the tide rise. I send her home around 4am. =)

3. Had an awesome meal at one of my Fav.restaurant. Yummy 6 course meal with a refreshing pot of Ice Apple Tea. =P

4. Shopping hopping. Visited 6 shopping mall in a day. PoMo, Parkway Parade, Downtown East, Tampines One, Tampines Mall & Vivo City. =)

5. Chat over a bowl of Ice-cream at Haagen Daz with Remy, BK, CY & V Monster. =)

6. Enjoy Heineken & Honey Wings with Wenni, Benny, Kenneth & V Monster at Summer Breeze Restaurant (Pasir Ris Beach) follow by some childhood playground fun. =D

7. Spend an afternoon at Earle Swensen (Airport Terminal 3) eating salad bar. =D

So as you all see, I really know how to be happy and enjoy life now. Whahahahaha

A nice relaxing song to end this post

Busy Busy Busy

I just realise that it have been two months since I last updated my blog. The pace of my life seriously increases and too many things happen that cause me to be so busy. Just a quick update of what happened over the last two months. I will try to update the blog more regularly from now on.

* I broke off with Mel already but it was quite a good and peaceful ending. Both of us understand that we are not suitable to be lover and we let go. I'm happy that we are still very good friend now and I don't regret making this way. =)

* A person I hate suddenly msg me this after he found out that I broke with Mel.
hi fren, How are you? hope yr alright aft the break up. Alwys here to offer u my shoulder. What is he trying to do. Laugh at me? I don't give a blame about him. =(

* My work is tough and tiring. Things are moving very fast. Schedule keep changing. Alot of frustration around but I still enjoy the job. Hopefully things will improve soon. =|

* I meet lots of new friends in RWS. Among which, I'm closest to V Monster. She is like a sister to me. She help me alot, regardless whether it's work issue or personal issue. Apart from her still got CY & BK which I'm close too. Really enjoy the time with them. Another person is Piggy. I know her for less than 2 weeks but she is able to attract me. It's not her look but something about her which I can't tell too. Hope to know her better as time past. =)

* My body is clear of all Emo Virus already but afew of my friends got it now. V Monster, Kang, Miss Emo, Ah Fen & Piggy. I know all their problems and is able to help expect for Piggy. I really want to help her but I don't know how cause she is not willing to tell me. I do not want to force her because I believe she will tell me when she's ready. No one can help her if she is not willing to help herself. =(

* Spent 3 nights at Resort World Festive Hotel and visited Universal Studio twice. Had fun with my colleagues there. =)

* PS is a mother already. I still can't believe it. She still don't have the mama look. hahahaha. She is still as slim after giving birth. I wish her and her baby all the best. =D

I think that's all for now. Will update soon. Here are a few nice songs. Enjoy. =P

A Year Since It Turn Dark

Time files & it really does. With just a blink of my eyes, more than a year has past since me and my ex-Bao Bei Lao Po quarrel. In this one year, many things changed. My life changed, my job changed, my circle of friends changed, my marital status changed, my mentality changed but did my heart change? Maybe it's like what many peoples told me, I don't need to be with her to love her.

Lately, she has been asking me for money to pay that lawyer fee. Rightfully, I do not need to pay anything because she is the one that engage the lawyer but she said that I got a part in it so I need to help her pay also. I do not buy in to this reason but at the end of the day, I still decided to help her. Am I too soft-hearted? But I really want her to be happy and continue to protect her from the sideline. But are you really happier now?

Good luck Bao Bei. I really hope you can find a guy that will treat you better than I did. Making you laugh and never cry. Letting you look forward and not backwards.

This was the song I listen when she just leave me. It make me feels so emo...

My Baby Birthday

Happy Birthday Baby. So sad that I need to work and cannot accompany you (I will blog about my job when I'm free).

I got her an adidas jacket and a hand-made photo frame for her. The photo frame might look simple but it took me more than 8 hours to complete it. I hope she love it. I got no money to buy better things for her cause I have not been working for quite a long while already. Cash is running low. But then again, I hope she is not materialistic. Here's something that Miss Emo said that I totally agreed. "In life,we don't really need all those materialistic things to stay happy,as you grow older,you will realise it,materialistic thoughts are just something that will fade off as time goes by.You will realise only most of the intangible things tend to make your heart stay." Even though she is still so young, she is much more mature than many of the girls I know. Hope she will find her confident soon cause she is lack of it. =)

Last Day Of Freedom

YES YES YES... I'm starting working tomorrow at Resort World Singapore. I'm so looking forward to it. I went shopping with my Baby today and took quite a number of photos. So happy today... :-D But soon I will not have so much time for my Baby already. :-(

Big Bang - Koe Wo Kikasete

I don't know what to say. Hopefully this song can express my feeling.



The rain just now has stopped
The smell of asphalt is floating around the city
Hey, over there too, the weather is fine already right?
For the weather has cleared up from the west
Since you're not a morning person
Everyday, will you be able to wake up properly?
Im still worried about things like that

The spreading sky, the freedom
Although neither of them has changed
Right now, just that its only just that you are not by my side

Let me hear your voice
If we become honest, surely
Well be able to understand each other
Please open your heart
Let me hear your voice
The path we have come is, for us, definitely
An important STEP to that future

The first time I met you was
Around this season right?
The light up street was
Glowing beautifully
The crybaby-you, from that time on, often
Laid your forehead on my shoulder
You were crying right? That extreme warmth
From your touch on my shoulder

Everyone lives, carrying his own worry
Desperately holding his broken heart

Let me hear you voice
If we become more kind
Well be able to love each other
Dont turn away from my eyes
Let me hear your voice
Lets get over those entwined anxieties and loneliness
The feelings of this moment become our bond

Yeah, Since you went away hasn't been the same
In my heart all I got is pain
Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I cant maintain
Sunlight moonlight you lit my life realize in the night
while love shines bright
Cant let you go were meant forever baby let me know

This past without you, Cant forget you
Letting me be the cloud hanging above me
Raining on me missing you touch
Nights get long and its hard to clutch
Were apart breaks my heart
Its all for the best girl youre my world
In time my love unfurls
He will then wait for you girl

Let me hear your voice
If we become honest, surely
Well be able to understand each other
Please open your heart
Let me hear your voice
The path we have come is, for us, surely
An important STEP to that future