Wow... More than a year never blog already. Actually I forgotten all about my blog already. Suddenly it just came across my mind to blog out my feeling. Too many things happened over the past year.
Work Life
I'm getting used to my new career path (almost 2 years already so not that new). It started off quite tough but just as everything is getting into place something happen and change it all. I been in this job without any major problem until last Sunday 11 sept (9/11 tenth anniversary). At around 9.50am, I was watching TV in R01 BB01 (It is a main gaming area for VIP) cause there is no player on my table when WJB (a famous for trouble making player) suddenly start shouting, "Kick that guy out of here, I do not want to see him anymore. If I see you again, I will break your leg". At first I thought he is scolding his dealer and want to change him but when I notice he is scolding me, I'm STUNNED. PM (Pit manager) Michael quickly ask me to go into Room S23 first. Soon after, PM came in and ask me what happen. I told him that I don't know. I was just sitting there watching my TV. He told me that WJB claim that I stared and scold him FUCK YOU. How the hell can I scold him when my back is facing him. He was at R01 BB03. I was then ask to go to CSM (Company Shift Manager) office to see Ann. Ann asked me the same question again and I told her that I really do not know what happen. I did nothing. I told her to check CCTV to prove my innocent. She say that she believe me so she will not check CCTV and ask me to go down to stay in MGA (Main gaming area) for 2 weeks then see if he leave already or not. If he leave, I can go back upstairs. In my heart was like WTF. Believe me then don't check CCTV? I think they don't want to offence the player and tell him that he made a mistake, I never scold him. And because of this, I been kick out of VIP area. I really wonder that management tell WJB. Did they make it like I really did scold him? Damn I'm so scare it will affect my chance of promotion. I been working every hard this year hoping to get promoted soon. Looks like it's all down the drain. Haizzzz... What the hell did I do wrong. Seriously, it is affecting my emotion quite badly. I'm so disappointed. These few days, I been trying very hard to control my emotional and try to continue give in my best at work. SMILE SMILE SMILE but in my heart is SADNESS & DISAPPOINTMENT.
Personal Life
Don't know where to start from. All I can say is that I disappoint a person that has been very good to me. She is always there for me when I need someone but some thing cannot be forced. Cannot do it mean cannot do it. I owned you a thousand SORRY. Thinking about all these making me emotional. I think I will stop for now. Will update again soon.
I hope I can be like Chris Medina but I'm just not strong enough
