Stress & Tired

Last night, I went westmall with my Baby and I got a surprise of my life. She has arranged for her mum to meet me without informing me. I got a shock when I saw her mum. I think her mum saw my shocking face too. We went for coffee but then I recall that I got no cash with me. I ran to the ATM to withdraw money. Come to think about it, it was not a bad thing cause I took the time I had at the ATM to calm myself down. Thank God that everything turn out quite smoothly. Hopefully I leave a good impression instead of a bad one.

Today, my Baby got an interview at 10am. I been trying to wake her up since 8am and I told her it's raining and it will be hard to flag a cab but she only manage to drag herself out of the bed at around 9am. Before she left the house, I told her it's raining and ask her to bring an umbrella but she don't want. She say the rain stopped. Soon after, she notice that her documents are missing. She left it at home and forget to bring. That's when she start turning grouchy and start showing attitude . She then rush off for her interview. I did not sent her down because I'm tired and lazy. 5mins after she left my house, she called me and say that she could not get a cab and is getting wet under the rain. The moment she hang up then phone, I quickly talk a jacket and an umbrella and rush down to find her. Thanks to my stupid slippers and the wet floor, I slip and fall. My butt is so pain lor. I got back on my feet and went to find her. As expected, she is so impatient and grouchy. I start to wonder how was her performance when she was working as an event management. It is the basic of all management job to stay calm and analyze the situation. Never mind about that. What really piss me off is that she got no cash with her and she don't want to take from me. Am I even her boyfriend? Or she is looking down on me since I'm not working now? And right in-front of me, she called her suitor and wanted to ask him come pick her up. I know she is late and there is no cab but did she think about how will I feel when she did that? I feel so useless and disrespected. Yesterday when I told my Baby that a friend's girlfriend ask me to play mahjong which I rejected her straightaway cause I need to fetch my Baby from work but my Baby still got jealous and angry. So why can't I be jealous and angry when my Baby called her suitor to come pick her up. 2 days ago, she went out with her suitor alone I already keep quiet lor.

I can't stand it when she threaten to leave me. She give me the feeling that I'm totally not important to her and she will leave anytime. Today, I suddenly feel very tired and the thoughts of giving up came across my mind but I recall something that my Baby say yesterday. "When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place". Haizzz... Hope the rain will stop and the bright sun will come out soon. Pray that my Baby interview will be successful and she is able to get a job she like soon.