The Pain Will Be Over Soon?

Lately, I come to realise that life is like a moon. Some days it is shining so brightly and sometime it is so dark that you might forget that it exist. Just like the economy, it was like a Bear Market for me BUT I think Bull Market is coming soon.

I had my operation last monday (3 Aug 2009). The accident almost cause me one of my hand. The damage on my wrist joint was damn bad. When the doctor show me the X-ray of my hand, I was so scare that my tears almost falls. I would rather die than to be a handicap for the rest of my life. But lucky for me, the operation was a success but it was tougher than what the doctor expected. Based on the X-ray, the doctor estimated the operation will take less than 1 hour but ended up taking more than 3hours. It started with 1 doctor but ended with 3. This is because the doctor face some problems and ask 2 senior doctors to help him (I know cause I was awake through out the whole operation). They put 5 metal inside me, now I'm a man of steel... lol...

The first night after the operation will like HELL to me. Once the anaesthetic wore off, the pain is something that I never encounter before. It's even more painful that the accident itself. Earlier that day, the nurse has asked me to inform her once it start to pain cause the doctor has prescribe a jab for me to numb the hand so I will not feel so painful but I decided not to take it and bear with the pain. I'm not trying to act tough or what. I just want to face it and remember the pain. I was hiding inside my blanket crying the whole night. At times, I really feel like running away by pressing the button to call the nurse over but I know that in life, we have to learn to face the pain on our own. We must not rely on others. Now, I'm so proud of myself. I manage to overcome the pain. The feeling of overcoming it is just indescribable.

Thanks to the pain, I'm awake now. The pain in my heart disappear together with the pain on my hand. The ME today is happier and ready to face the future. Even though there are still come things in mind that I have not sorted out but I'm very confident that I will be able to do so. One by one, I will make sure I sort it out. I started moving forward already and I believe that I Will Survive for SURE. Please say Gabatte to me. FIGHTO-OH.