Since I had my operation, I been trying very hard to piece all the broken parts of my life back together. I'm now back on my feet and moving toward already. One of the biggest step I took was to confess this girl which I like since my NS days. In my life, there are only 3 girls that I had strong feeling for and she is one of them.
One of my friend asked me this, "You just had a huge fall and you still not scare? Are you sure about it?". I did not answer my friend but that night I think hard about it. Yes, the fall was really painful but that's LIFE. You fall but you have to stand up again to move forward. Remain seated is safe but you will be struck there. I want to explore new area so I choose to take up the challenge. I really hope this time round, I can reach a place where I can label it as a Paradise. I seriously believe that having her in my life will bring lots of color to both our world.
However, by the looks of it I think it is tough. I'm trying my best to move forward but she is too scare to move out of her comfort zone. I been encouraging her but I'm just not a very good speaker and I'm unable to convince her. I was never good with girls. I don't know how to sweet talk.
Despite being multiple rejection by her, I decided to keep trying again and again. I believe that one fine day, I will be able to melt the solid heart of hers. But today, I think she start finding me irritating and naggy. Am I trying too hard that I burn my own chance? The whole night I was very emo and I miss her but I don't dare to call her. I keep thinking about how I should make my next move but I'm lost and confuse. I do not know what to do next but I really do not wish to give up. Why am I always the one getting hurt?
付出的一切值不值得
永远不会有答案
只有天知道我有多么爱你
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