Relationship Vs Friendship

*ring ring... My handphone rang and I am so happy to see my Baby calling me. I quickly pick up the phone and my Baby ask me to accompany her go swimming before she go out with her friends later. I quickly agree and went ahead to prepare for a nice swim with my Baby.

Just as I was about to leave my house, I suddenly had stomachache. I rush to the toliet with all my stuff in hand(bag, swimming stuff & helmet). I quickly sms my Baby to inform her that I will be late. I scare she will be angry if I'm late. I quickly do my business and fly down to her place. I call her when I reach her house downstairs. After that I went up to wait outside her house cause I really can't wait to see her. However when she open the door, she look so scared and she panic abit. She ask me to wait awhile and she went back inside. I look around and notice that there is another pair of male slipper outside. In my mind, I start thinking if she is back with her ex or could it be Yongan or other family guest. I try to act like I never notice anything and hope she will tell me herself but when she came out, she act so strange. The way she smile also so strange. When we reach the bike, her phone rang and I overheard a male voice speaking in chinese. He said something like I want to go already and my Baby reply "cannot, don't, I explain to you later". After hearing that, I'm sure she is trying to hide something from me. I do not want to say it out cause I really don't want to quarrel with her. I think she sense that I notice something already and keep asking me if I'm troubled. I say no and still hope she can be honest with me and tell me that someone is in her house but she never.

While we are swimming, it suddenly rain heavy and we have to stop swimming. We went to wash up before buying a drink then sit down and chat while waiting for the rain to stop. She know that I'm troubled so she tried to force it out of me but I don't want to say so she is piss off. After that, I got no choice but to said it out. I told her I don't know how to trust her cause she is not open to me. I did not sleep last night cause I'm scare she might go back to her ex after seeing him yesterday. She tell me the person in her house is Yongan and it's her mum that ask him to go. Damn it, Yongan again. Why does she have to hide it? If she tell me from the start, I will not have anyhow think. If it's really her mum that invited him to her house, why is she so scared when she saw me just now? I keep thinking to myself if I can trust her.

Before we can solve it, she say she need to leave cause she meeting her friends and Yongan is outside the swimming waiting for her. Then she just stand up and walk off. So her friends are most important than our relationship? She just walk off to have fun with her friends without solving our problem first? What am I to her? What much she value our relationship? When things are so bad for us, she still got the mood to go out play? I feel so sad. I did not want to stay at the swimming alone cause I know I will become even more emo so I decided to ride under the heavy rain. I do not know why I suddenly no scare of rain anymore and speed my way home. After I took a bath, I was hoping that she will call or sms me and ask if me where am I or if I have reach home. I waited and waited. Finally after almost 1hour of waiting, I got an sms from her but it was nothing as expected. Her sms said "B can transfer me 150?"(It's her own money. She ask me to help her control her salary). I'm damn disappointed. Does she even care about me? She is having fun awhile I am emoing. Haizzzzz............. Edina is encouraging me to let go but is that really what my heart wants?