Further & Further It Gets

For the past few days, my Baby has been spending lots of time with Yongan. I was jealous but I know she need her freedom. Today I msn and ask if she got any appointment or program and she say no. I was so happy so I decided to go and fetch her from work. I thought she will miss me like I do but she don't seen very happy to see me.

After we reach her house, she suddenly say that she can't forget her ex and want to leave me. She thinks that it is unfair for me cause she don't think she can forget her ex. I don't wish to let go but what's the point of holding on to a empty shell? I'm too tired of living in fear already. I don't want to make the same mistake as what I did before. Once bitten twice shy right?

After she went home, I went to west coast park and think about what she said. Maybe she's right, she might be happier without me. I can't bear to let go but I think I got no other choice. I think I already lose her. I don't even have a tiny bit of her heart. I start to doubt all the things that she said before. I don't know how to trust her anymore so I decided to really let go.

She tried calling me many times but I never pick up the phone cause I don't know how to face her. After her countless number of calls, I finally pick up the phone. She say that she is scared that I will not avoid her and not because she is scare to lose me. =( So I promise her that I will not avoid her and will be like the old days where I'll be there for her whenever she need me as a close friend.

After she put down the phone, I suddenly feel so emo. I not sure what I did was right or wrong. I start to miss her again. I really hope to hug her for one last time but I know if I do that, it will be even harder for me to let go. Alot of peoples say that time will heal everything but the healing process is torturing. Is there anyway to instead heal the pain? I'm feeling so painful now!


I'm scare that our ending will be similar to this MV ending.